These keep getting lumped together in my mind. I will start off thinking about the abuse I went through.....so much of it then I end up feeling strong mistrust, paranoia, sleep problems yes even with the meds I'm on, feeling so unworthy and damaged. Like I will always be alone bc I push ppl away.

So I called the on call therapist and she said I sounded manic, and I need to get stabalized, and then T and I can look at the traumas. It's so frustrating bc bp and ptsd seem to feed off each other for me.

It is so painful, once again feeling life is so unfair and why God, universe whatever? Bp stands for bipolar.

Any insight would be appreciated.