I understand what you are going through. I can't trust my eyes, can't trust how my body feels, can't trust what other people say how I look. It's very disheartening and scary sometimes, and I just feel so weak for not doing more about it.
I am glad to hear that you are working through it best you can, with affirmations and such! You are definitely not alone. I am glad you are taking the positive way out today...
Good luck!!! And nice to meet you.