Well I had my first baby at 45 and she is one of the best things in my life. It was and is a lot of work and I stressed way more then I needed to. My husband and I had little to no outside support. I have an awful time sleeping so sleep deprivation was and is still an issue. She is three now and I am just starting to feel myself again. I worry about her having such old parents...she misses out on so much grandparents gone...siblings much older than her...but she is healthy and I am grateful. I try to keep my priorities straight and use my energy for her care and play...leaving the house not as clean as I wld like. I find myself having to forgive myself for not keeping everything tiptop...just the top things. As much of a struggle things can be I am hoping in the end she'll be happy to be here.