I have not shown it to her yet. When I originally filled it out I was angry and frustrated. It took her writing me a letter to be able to start talking again. I was extremely hurt and angry and didn't even want to look at her. I just wanted to run away and not have to face what she did to me. After I read her letter, I felt how guilty and how much remorse she felt for her actions. I think it was also a wake up call for her. I think both of us got too comfortable with each other and stopped talking and taking an interest in each other's lives.

A few weeks ago I told her about this forum, not by name but just that I found something thathelps lme deal with things. I offered to share it with her, but after talking we decided it might be best if I keep it for myself. She has a best friend that she talks to and this place is like my best friend in a way. Guys just don't talk about this kind of stuff and I can't imagine being as open as I am here with them. Angry is a much more accepted emotion than sadness for men and that kinda sucks. I talked to my friend Jose about it, and the question of how do you feel never came up. Just that the situation really sucks and what I was going to do about it. At the time I wanted to leave, but now I am willing to try and work things out.