Thanks guys for your support..
CANDY BEAR: Thanks.. I see what you mean about focusing on one thing at a time.. it's true.. I guess it's just kinda hard to figure out which one.. and sometimes I feel like I can't change anything. even though I know that it's not true, I feel that way.
Thank you for your help.

SIMON: Thank you soo much for being there for me and always having the right thing to say to me. You always make me feel better.
Your words make me feel better.. I know I'm not wrong. I guess it's just that I feel differently. It's like when someone tells you they love you and show you they love you but you just dont feel that way.
I feel like I just can't fit in with anyone.. like I don't belong with anyone.. i dont know. I hate it because even when people try to be friends with me i seems to push them away.. It took me a while to realize it, but now I know that I do that. I just don't know how to change it.. I dont know how to stop doing that.. I guess im scared of lettin others into my life and get to know the real me.
Not being in a relationship is lonely.. but I just can't get involved with anyone. I dont know why. Sometimes i dont feel like im good enough,, other times {I guess depending on the guy} I'm too good, I think.. But either way, I never get anywhere..
I do hope I meet someone. it seems like every guy that I've ever liked has turned out to be completely different.. I can't stand most guys.. They are so immature and perverted and just dumb. All most of them care about it getting drunk and high. They have no goal and no plans for their future.. I hate it.
I think I don't get with guys because I am afraid of showing how I trully feel. I've always had a hard time showing and expressing my emotions.. always. Even with my family.. I am not the kind of person that hugs and kisses their family, even though I love them.. I can't ever admit to anyone, including myself that I like someone, I dont know why.
And another thing.. It pisses me off when a guy I dont like is attracted to me.. i cant stand it and i act mean to them.. I stop talking to them and ignore them forever..
I've always been pretty much taught that sex is bad. I know it's not, but its like part of me thinks it is.. and like its not acceptable. I think that's also why i stay away from guys,, most of them want a physical relationship and i just dont think that's what i want.
Simon, dont be ashamed of still being a virgin.. I respect that a lot and I think most women do as well. Guys are usually perverts and will do it with anyone.. just for the hell of it. And the fact that you haven't makes you more respectable..really.
I'm sorry that you were abused.. that must be hard. My friend was raped by three different guys and I see how much it has affected her.. I think my mom was also raped.. i think that's why she protects me so much too.. I hope you know that you are a great person as well.
I mean look around here, all there is is women mostly.. You are one of the only guys on here i think and you are so smart.. you seem different than most guys,, most of them would think that they are too good or too "manly" to go on a website.. stupid.. but you're not. and I hope you realize that.
i do what I like to do., but it's just that sometimes my family criticizes me about not being in touch with my culture or whatever.. but I can't help not likin it. It's another reason that i dont feel like i fit in with any of my friends.. i guess.
Thank you so much Simon.

FROGGIE:
I AM overwhelmed. VERY overwhelmed. Thank you for your advice. I want to try that too.. concentrate on what I love to do.. because I think you're right that if I do that, i will meet people that are more like me.. I'm just sort of torn between my old friends and what I used to be and what I am now..
Thanks.. have a great day.
By the way, frogs scare me.. lol