Simon,
I'm sorry about what you are going through..
I can't imagine what it was like to have your parents fighting each other..
I'm sorry that your holiday plans aren't going to be what you had planned. I hope that you are still going.. you need the vacation..
Have you ever thought about moving away? Like moving out of your house?.. Maybe it would help you to start out and to be away from all your problems at home..
Don't be sorry... you need to let out your feelings like the rest of us...
When I read what goes on in your life it makes me feel stupid about my life and how much I complain when I don't have any of those things going on in my life.. I should appreciate what I have more... I don't even know if I could get through that.. i'm a pretty weak person..
but you're strong and i know that you will get through it..
I KNOW you will.