Had an ugly argument with Gary ( I was ugly) I cant get angry without screaming profanities or I need to hit / throw something.

I'm just so fkn tired of looking out for everyone and nobody looks out for me. I asked him for 1 thing, to do me 1 favour and he didnt care enough to. After I feed and clothe him, make sure he has razors, toiletries, recreational money, travelling fair, even bought meat the other day for a BBQ he wanted to have with a few friends! After all of this, everyday for years, what I need / want doesn't affect him he says, so why should he be bothered...

btw All I asked was that he help me pack out the scrap in the garage, I've already arranged the transport. So that Rowan can park there in peace because his car was broken into last time he visited me...

Well then I said his money issues dont affect me, he must give back the fkn 100 bucks I just gave him 5 seconds ago for bus fair!

Yes I was mean but it was justified!
and I'm hurt because he KNEW that was my LAST money I gave him and he didnt even appreciate the gesture enough to reciprocate!

Well I got my money back. This house this family is no longer my problem. Jordan and I can eat take out or ready made dinners from now. From now on I only take care of us.

FK EVERYBODY ELSE for real this time! No more half measure fux from me.

Told mom I'm done carrying everyone. I'll pay to rent my room and thats it. She doesn't need to cater for me or Jordan. Told her we are leaving as soon a I get a permanent post. I'm over this shyt.