Yep, music is a pretty powerful thing. I listen to different genres depending on my mood actually.
I understand the whole BPD thing. It's hard and no matter what you feel, people do care. Sometimes it takes a while to realize that. I finally am after 7 years. So my advice is to stick with it and you'll find people who really care and really understand you. It's ok and normal to hurt too. And posting this means you're reaching out.
~Yoslos12