Simon.. Living with n alcoholic is like a bad rollercoaster ride that never stops.... this is a bumpy part and tomorrow it may well be smooth again.. hang in there.

I know you feel all alone and we are faceless people on the other side of the computer screen but those of us who know you love you and want you to have all the happiness in the world.Be patient.. your time for love is coming soon enough.

Yor dad is hiding from his own pain and inner turmoil with the booze.. why else would he drink like he does?I wish he could get help for it, but if he can't maybe you should try going to groups for people who live with alcoholics.Here ins the states there are groups like AA for the families and it is a good thing.I think its called Al-Anon but I'm not sure.

You can' really afford to be worrying about him simon.. you have so much to do to take care of yourself so you can heal from your own pain.He is a grown man.. he is responsible for his own actions...you take care of YOU!

Hugs.. Faith