I think Leed has posted a very helpful reply. I understand somewhat what you are going through. I was abused/raped at 14. By the time I was 17 I craved sex and did it with almost anyone who would give me the attention. Being an easy mark I am sure I was open fodder for any hormone enhanced teenage male. The obvious thing happened. I got pregnant during my last term in high school, then miscarried after 3 months.

Being abused in 2009 was not your fault in any way or under any conditions. It was wrong for someone to take advantage of you, and I suspect that your response like mine is not all that uncommon. No girl should ever have to go through that

I got into a bunch of bad relationships with dysfunctional males and finally married one after I got pregnant again. After 4 years of being an abusive slug, he took off one day and ran away with another woman. I eventually remarried at 31 and have had a stable relationship since

The bottom line it is not all that uncommon for a girl to want sex. How ever going to bed with just anyone of the male gender is really dangerous and incredibly damaging psychologically.

I really believe that a good counselor can help you through this. Most women have this great desire to be wanted and to be loved. But it needs to be with someone who is really committed to being there for you and for whom you really care. The world is full of "sperm donors" who exploit women for their own pleasure

It does not have to be that way. Sex with a man whom you really love and who really loves you can be the most beautiful thing in the world. When that is not true it can be pretty degrading and evil

Hugs -- I am cheering for you and just want you to know that I care