recently things between me and my gf have been deteriorating, on the saturday just gone i told her i wanted to go on a break because she kept hurting me so much, making me question myself, its because of her my phone is in such a state, ive been taking out my anger on my phone instead of myself, i used to be a SI'er im still very tempted to just go and cut now...... im still worried about her, im always worryed about her, but i dont know if i love her, but i do care for her. we had been together for a year and 4 months. i told my T about this and she said that i was sacrifycing myself to make her happy but in not feeling 100% myself i might b hurting her just as much. we each want the other to be happy. i still want to be with her but at the same time i want to be with everyone else, am i just a selfish B&^$£%D? wanting whats best for me? but what i want it her to be happy....
im so confused..

~how can someone stop you from crying, when they are the ones that made you start~