i don't know it may be what happened at docs and a few things that happened at my retreat that are kind of bothering me not that i am out of the situation. but i did have a good time and that is frustrating. i am having thoughts of SI and i don't know why.i want to do this homework the T has given me and i am scared to .i feel like a failure with that and am terrified to not have done it .i think the last part it the biggest issue