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thta's how my life is. same carp over and over. never ends. never gets better.
don't have a therapist anymor either. she wants me to do the partial hospitalization program at one of the hospitals here, and until i'm done with that she won't see me. but i cna't do the php because a) i have no transportation, b) i have no money for gas, c) i don't have the $400 copay for the ten day program.
that's just the tip of the iceberg. so much going on. and noneof it is good.
i'm feeling completely numb right now. already dead. no emotions left. tired. don';t know why i keep trying. there's no point. i'm not allowed to be happy. i get punished for being happy.
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As she draws her final breath
Just beyond the door he'll find her
Taking her hand he softly says
For the first time you can open your eyes
And see the world without your sorrow
Where no one knows the pain you left behind
And all the peace you could never find
Is waiting there to hold and keep you
Welcome to the first day of your life
Just open up your eyes as I lay you down tonight
Safe on the other side
No more tears to cry
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