I sometimes get jealous over nothing. when i find out what it's all about, i'm just not interested. my friends used to make a lot of friends at once and then i would get jealous because they get friends so fast without trying whereas I have to start talking to people in order for them to just, you know, be there for me and all that. i have to tell them that i am here to make friends in order to become their friend, and it sucks. then i found out that i was missing out on a lot of extracurricular activities, like tennis, badminton, dance, etc. i was a recluse so i began to just stay afterschool and finally got to meet some people and it was alright. I'm glad I have some friends. they have like a ton of friends and i'm just not happy when they perform better and quicker than i do. now that i have seen everything and know everything, he doesn't really talk to these people since they're just his casual friends. now i'm like i was being jealous for nothing. it's always better to not assume. and when someone speaks to me and tells me that i'm not getting what i want, i get a little mad and then i get over it. i wish i can just be robotic, not have any feelings. i don't want to have feelings of sadness or anything negative, but of course, that's not how life would be. i feel like i have to remove everything that makes me sad or negative.