I don't want to always be sad, down, angry, upset...I this person I am and I hate that it has affected my life so badly. I do not want this.......I don't want to feel so miserable...I hate that I am this way. And I hate that other people have to see me like this.

I've been this way for so long...and will continue to be this way--it's not going away. How can I accept the horrible person I have become?