Well, it's been a long few days. I got denied on my SSDI reconsideration. They didn't get all the records in time from my psych and my primary care. Now I guess we have to get a court date and that will be a long time from now. :-(

I spent about two hours crying on Friday. I was so down. I haven't been able to concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes. I always have a short fuse. I was so wound up Saturday night I did six loads of laundry, dishes, and some other housework. I only slept about four hours last night. I ended up reading this book from the library, "Bipolar for Dummies" until I got sleepy about 1AM. I couldn't keep one mood for a whole day, does that make sense? I got really angry at my partner, overreacting to something she said, and then later that night I felt sad and down. I took the Depression and Mania quizzes and got Moderate/Severe on BOTH.

My primary care said it will be awhile until the medication (Trileptal) really does anything, since I am starting off slow on it. I don't know what a "normal" dose is, guess I'll have to ask the psych when I see her again the end of this month. My partner is like, "Well it needs to hurry up." I said, "Well, I am doing what I can. I can't make it hurry up."

Thanks for being here.

Rainbow Faerie