Have you already told your T and Pdoc about this?
Calmer for now. This is nothing but I'm getting more agitated. I do not want a repeat of last month.

T knows I've been like this more or less 9 weeks.
T keeps tabs on me thought the week, Through my writing or attempts at writing.
My husband's T and my T talk
T is treading carefully because of my tendency towards paranoia
T's been checking w. my husband
T only works MWF
T only calls when I okay it.

T does not want me to drink at all right now.

P doc kinda knows
ED puts him in a huge bind
He put me back on viibryd
He doesn't know it got worse then better, then this.
His front desk refuses to transfer to his office
He has no extension line
Only works W, TH

I'll be there tomorrow to pick up meds so I'll leave a note in his inbox.
So pdoc should call Wednesday.