I was pretty devastated back in 2004.

Up until then, I had pretty realistic hopes that I would return to college and get my master's degree and license in psychology.

However, my second pregnancy and (2nd) post-pregnancy were very difficult for me. My brain never returned to the pre-pregnancy phase. Despite many dosages and mixtures tried, surgery was the answer for me, which led to lasting effects. I never really had time to grieve that part of my life, as there was so much else happening in my world at that time!

When I think of it now, I feel a deep sorrow inside. I am a shell of who I once was.