Beginning to understand BP after 3 years , I have not even scratched the surface for me it seems . To comes to terms with it , I've had to over think every emotion . When there is an emotion, I mentally go into ' check mode' , how else do I finally hit a point of knowing what I haven't recognized, is not a healthy behavior I keep repeating. I'm a fish that was yanked out of the water of what I thought was normal . Trying to differentiate BP from 'normal' , that has taken me to think the entire population of the earth is not normal . I am working on over thinking , but until I get a handbook with a short version of how to put this together in laywoman terms ...