I would like to not believe that I'm a bad person...

I see so much good around me...and I cannot relate to it I'm so focused on all the bad things...

and because I do this?...I resent the good things...

and I feel bad

pretty obvious dysfunction...

this is why they say I'm mildy autistic cos I have no apparent empathy and I cannot look anyone in the eyes...
but what do they know and what does it matter?

but I'm just ashamed

...I would like to be not ashamed...
I don't even know what I ever did wrong?
I just see things different!

I would like to be able to trust that how I see things is ok!

thats the one thing I would change Christina...

to trust my mind...to believe in myself