Hello,
Well, I've reached to the point where I don't know whether I'm in a good or in a bad relationship. I love my boyfriend and he says he loves me too, but his attitude is that he prefers to show it than to say it, unlike me, but that it is obvious that he loves me. I' don't feel that it is that obvious, for me it's more like that famous -he's just not that into you. Saturday evenings are regular for us, we do stuff together,and I always sleep over (I'm in a dorm,so he can't spend the night in my room). He has hobbies (so do I but not the same as his) such as anime, video games and war machine-a strategic board game,he is really into that,and I do respect that. But for this Saturday he just said "I'm playing war machine in the evening, I'll see you in Sunday".But the reason we see each other every Saturday is because he works and he has to get up early for the rest of the week.I said nothing,but than I asked him to move the game a little bit earlier, and than he said "Yeah, I thought so too". But he didn't think to do that before I said,and he constantly says how all of that is not more important than I am to him. So, I said that it doesn't matter,that he can have his Saturday. Also, I am still terribly angry and hurt with the fact that he called me his ex girlfriend's name and by his statement he will first talk to her when he wants to get married.She is his best friend and they spend at least one EVENING a month alone in his room watching anime. I know (I don't read his messages, but when he goes through his phone and I am close I see that they hear regularly and he has a special nickname for her). His words how he tried to keep her (but that it was just a matter of habit) and the fact that their friendship was initiated by him, 'cos he had hoped for months after their break up that she will come back to him are stuck in my head. Also, because I don't want to introduce guilt in our relationship I always have to be the one to apologize. I tried to break up 'cos I thought he still has feelings toward her, but we reconciled,because he said he wouldn't be with me if he still has feeling for her. I am 23, he is 31,we are 8 months in. I must say that he is really insecure about himself. He broke up with his ex 4 years ago and I am his first girlfriend after that. I don't know what to think about this relationship. To me,if you really want to see someone, you would move the game,he anyway always plays it on Sundays and we see each other twice a week.