I just woke up. Slept for about 12 hours. I woke up already feeling pretty empty, like there is a big hole at the center of me that I don't know how to fill. Thinking a lot about my friend and wishing he'd respond to my email (he won't). I know everyone is sick of hearing about it, but I really miss him. We texted everyday and my phone is just so...quiet. I don't know when I'm going to be okay about this.