Idk. I know you all say that. But my lack of trusting people in this life -- and that means everywhere... makes me say.. it's easy to say "i care.. " online. it's easy, there is no real connection or obligatoin or accountability. I can, or we can say whatever we want, act friendly, loving and caring and the other person will never know. We never have to do anything beyond typing sht on a computer to each other. Where's the realism in that? Where's the real friendship connection? Idk, it seems to me it's lacking. I'm not saying no one does care. I'm saying this is what goes through my head lately. I can post 1,000 hugs on here and it doesn't mean squat in reality, does it? I can say *hugs to you* a million times and although I do mean it, I feel like it's nothing. I know it's nothing. it's just words on a screen.

I'm sorry I'm ranting now. This is part of why I've been away...