Lee, Ive been in counseling for along time but I havent really opened up completely :/ I know its not gonna help if Im not completely open and honest but I dont want to be judged and in the back of my mind I know she wont judge me its her job not to judge me shes there to help, but she recently moved to texas and Im in california.... Jlarissadragon,
I guess it wasnt my fault completely I shouldnt have been where I was when I was, I consented at first but got scared and it hurt like a mother!! I dont think a man can ever love me Im damaged goods, I fear that once they find out about my past they'll run for the hills and I dont blame them shoot I'd run too.... I havent really even told my mom who happens to be my best friend how many guys Ive been with she'd be so disappointed in me and wouldnt look at me the same well thats what I fear the most... and Im afraid my BBF would think of me as a huge slut and find me dirty...