I have some offline friends but no one knows about my mental health status so I have to pretend for them and it's exhausting. The only one who knew is gone now, and I can't get him back. I have one other who knows but I swear, she thinks that it's partially spiritual, and that's all I'm saying about it because I don't want to get into trouble for talking about religion on the forums. The point is that I can't be myself offline at all.