Might be TRIGGERING

My biggest problem quitting SI was that each time I tried I would be so desperate to quit that I would rather die than cut, then I would OD in a suicide attempt, wake up the next day and realized that even my friends would rather me cut than die so I would go back to that.

The only way I managed to quit and not relapse... at least not yet with cutting... was when I was tempted to OD I would make myself throw up until I was too tired and drained of energy to lift me head (ie couldn't reach for pills).

I wouldn't really advise this method because it isn't healthy, but when I look back and realize this was probably the only way of quiting that kept me alive, I am thankful for it.

Basically I just wanted you to know how I got through it, and tell you be careful. If at all possible use healthier coping mechanisms, but if it comes down to it I'd rather you try this way than die.

I hope that helps some.