((kim))) I think this is something you have to work on and come to terms with. The reality of it is that every where you go in life you are going to come across triggers with this. I know, I speak from experience. You need to come to a point of acceptance of what happened, and move from there. How bout instead of allowing yourself to feel torment by these happy memories he has, decide how you can create some form of happiness in your life. Making good memories. Since my childhood I have always considered my best friends my family...not my blood ties my family. It really will take work on your part to over ride this, but I think some day you are going to want a family of your own. Think of the things you would like in a family.

In the meantime, if your roomie has a bad temper, maybe it would be better to see if you could find another. You really need someone supportive that can help you through this, not make those memories harder. ((((((((((((kim))))))))))))))))))

hugs, Lisa