I'm sorry guys, I'm posting another depressing post. I feel like everyone must be so sick of me.

I woke up feeling like I had a big empty space inside of me. I slept 12 hours but I just feel so depressed that I feel like I could go back to bed and sleep 12 more. I am too restless to sit here on PC; I feel like I want to scream or throw my computer. But when I put my laptop aside I feel restless because I'm lonely.

I'm so depressed about losing my friend and I know I should just get over it and that people are probably sick of hearing it. I don't know if I'll ever get over it. I don't think I'll ever have another friend as good as him. No one knew as much about me, and now I have no one to talk to about the certain things we talked about. I feel like there is a huge piece of me missing and I can't get it back. I just...feel like there is no point in me even living anymore. I know, I shouldn't be thinking like this over one person but I don't know. My world had color in it and now it's gray and dull.

I was supposed to have someone from craigslist come pick up my old TV today but I told the person I had to go to work so I wasn't going to be home. I'm such a liar. I just don't want to see anyone. And I was restless thinking of having to deal with someone coming over. I don't know why, I feel silly now.

I have no idea how I'm going to work my three 12 hour shifts in the next three days. I don't even want to get out of bed.

Sorry I'm such a downer.