Dear T--

So, did you really have to run over me when I finally got the courage up to talk about what I feel like I need? Did you really not hear me taking responsibility for the most part?

Oh, and do you get defensive whenever anyone asks if you think you can really help, and when someone questions your role in the "relationship" in the context of therapy? Or is it just me you don't like hearing that from?

And does it matter that my inability to feel our relationship is stable and durable enough to trust you and do the work is at the bottom of every failure I meet with in therapy? Could you really not have reached out just the tiniest bit rather than pointing out that we've met regularly for the last 4 years, as if a room and time is enough to feel connection?

Just wondering about all that. And more.