i've only seen this t a couple of times. well, three, the third time she sent me to the hospital and then wouldn't see me anymore.
to be honest, i don't think sitting in groups all day is going to help me. i went for one day before i lost my car, i don't see how that;s going to maek a difference. but oh well.

i guess there is no t out there who is willing to work with me. i have trust issues, ti takes me a long time to be able to open up. most t's bail on me before i get to that point. the t before this one, same office, siad she'd never abandon me, especially not when i'm having a rough time, and that she's the one who takes the clients that nobody else would touch with a ten foot pole. well, two months later i was in the hospital, and when i got out she was suddenly too busuy for me and passed me off to this last t. i liked her, i thought she could really make a difference. but once again a t ran off on me. i don't know if i can trust her after this. i haven't even talked to her since she sent me to te hosptial.

i need a t i can trust. someone who has my back no matter waht. someone who won't bail on me when things get tough.

but i guess i'm a hopeless case. 14 years of therapy with countless t's, and it has gotten me nowhere. noone ever even tried to work on stuff, except for this last one.

i guess when all the t's give up on you, it's time to give up on yourself.

my periods of normal last for a week, at best. then i start feeling happy, and **** gets dumped on me again. it's not long enough to be wrth it.