Sixteen years old, five hospitalizations, four years in the mental health care system, and two attempts.

I realize that to have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, you have to be at least eighteen. I also realize that well, I'm sixteen. Hormones play a big part relating to both my mental and physical health, and I understand that this could just be one big bag of angsty teenage crap shoved down the wrong pipe. That being said, the symptoms I have are not normal and not every teenager experiences this. From what I've researched, everything points here. Everything. BPD doesn't fit like a glove, but it's the closest thing I've got.

- intrusive thoughts; aggressive in nature
- suicidal tendencies/threats
- no trouble establishing relationships, cannot keep them
- mood swings; quite rapid, can go from 0 to homicidal in four seconds flat over the tiniest thing
- abandonment issues to the max; imagines worst possible scenario if my caregiver doesn't return by a certain time
- overanalyzes everything; physically exhausts me
- fits; crying, screaming, thought process is in chaos, happens often
- lots of anger; if a friend doesn't call, text back, or hang out I'll immediately attribute their actions to "oh, they don't want to be my friend anymore. I hate them, they hate me. Why are they doing this?"
- assertive, to the point of aggressive; I will not take no for an answer
- paranoia; usually stress related, I'll usually think random people are reading my mind, they're after me, they hate me, they're all conspiring against me.
- binge eats during times of stress
- flexible morals, sexual identity, and likes/dislikes

x have never done drugs, drank to the excess.
x never had a girl/boyfriend - don't wish to until I'm completely certain I'm well enough for that type of relationship
x past history of physical abuse, 4 - 7
x my mother committed suicide when I was two, my father left us
x don't self harm with the exception of digging into myself in times of stress/breakdown, bite my nails until they bleed as well as hands
x psychiatrists have thought I was bipolar in the ER when sent in for the attempts
x been on Prozac, Zoloft, Seroquel, and Trazodone

If you need clarification on anything just ask. But, because most of you will say, "go see a professional" - I have. And they won't be able to do anything, anyway. I just ... really need to know what I should do now that a diagnosis is out of the question - no one has given me a straight answer, and believe me, I've tried. They just constantly hand me off to the next person.

So, my question to you, is what's my next move?