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Originally Posted by idontknowme427
haven't actually been together, but we occasionally text, email, and/or Skype with each other, trading pictures & videos. We have planned getting together several times, but one of us always backs out. I tell him he using me for free porn and he says I'm using him and just being a big tease to him, but we still continue with the fun.
I have also traded pics through email with a few more guys.
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I have reread the OP and besides the excitement about secrecy (which you call "rebellion" without a reason - secrecy, sure, and secret life can be fun and exciting and that is fine, but there is no
rebellion - rebellion is an act of OPEN resistance, so "secret rebellion" is an oxymoron; I think what you were trying to do by calling your life rebellious is to romanticize it, which is OK... sorry I am analyzing English words but since the post consists of English words and nothing else, I do not know what else to analyze...), what is noticeable is the high involvement of technology and multi-media (see the quote above) ) in the activities that you enjoy.
So... maybe start sending flirty pictures to your husband via Skype, email, or text? Maybe that would be fun? Not necessarily to replace "actually being with him" but to supplement it?