I'm doing much better now than I was a week ago; the thoughts have calmed down, the desire is less desperate. But I still have sui thoughts that are more intense than the current of harmless sui ideation that I chronically experience. As I described in a previous thread, part of me still very much wants to die.

What should I do about this? I suspect that once I figure out why I want to die, I can address that reason and either fix it (if possible) or end things (if no other solution exists). But what should I do until then to avoid the thoughts? They're distressing and dangerous (though I don't know to what degree). I'm meeting with my t on Thursday; maybe she'll have some suggestions.

A side note: when do you know that you're so sui that emergency action is needed? My parents told me to get them at any time when things get intense, and they'll take me to the ER. Of course, that sounds like a very dramatic action, and I don't want to put my family through that. But I don't want to put them through the pain of losing a family member to sui either.

Thanks