I feel like I can never get out of this. I'm in a prison without bars. I want/don't want....I need/don't need.....angry at me/angry at you.....should do/won't do....I hate/I am apathetic.....

This prison has been closing in on me for decades and has ruined my life.

Also I am smart/hopelessly stupid.

Most employers just thought I was hopelessly stupid so who am I to say.

I can't do anything right/but who cares anyway?

I'm ok/and on death's door.

I need therapy/also need to sue most of my former therapists.

I have a chance to opt into a nice living situation tonight/I'm too disabled to even call back.

This is the meaning of borderline personality disorder.

HELL itself.