im such a weirdo. whenever im strong enough to NOT message/contact a certain friend, i find myself counting how many days it's been since ive talked to him. i always tell myself "just let him message you...let him contact you first"...but i can rarely do that.

last i messaged him was sunday. we'll see how long i can go. i just dont want to be a weirdo....he already knows im a weirdo...but i dont want to be a weirdo. gaaaaaaah.

it's even harder because i dont have too many other people to talk to. ha...but even with the few other people i have...it's not the same. im so attached to this dude.