I really feel despondent right now. About a month ago I decided to join a group for women who went through csa. The idea of a group is not something that I am comfortable with. So many things about it terrify me, but I got a little courage and thought that maybe it would be good for me. My problem now is that I still haven't had my first session. Last week was supposed to be my first time going, but the group T had to cancel for an emergency. Now this week she had to cancel again due to illness. I really do get that things happen, and I am sure that it's just been a bad couple of weeks for her, and that this is not the norm, but I'm starting to think that this is a sign. Maybe this isn't something that I should do right now. It took so much for me to build myself up to go last week, and then again this week, I just don't know if it's worth the stress. Should I try to make it to at least one meeting before I make a decision? I know if I go I am going to have to try not to be overly cautious because of the way it has started for me.