I wish I had good advice for you. Self harm is a coping skill. When you start doing it, it becomes your skill to cope with everything. Just like alcohol and drugs for some people and food for others. I wish you strength in dealing with your problems. I haven't been doing so good myself recently. I hope therapy helps me. Maybe one day you can find a therapist. I stopped for 8 years the last time I went to therapy. It helped to talk to someone that could help.