Thank you for asking Sannah. I had a really tough session today.

She did address the email and asked me about it. What my feelings are about myself: I feel I don't have value or I experienced value growing up. She also told me she almost sent me a response to my email but decided to wait till I saw her in person.

She did confirm that she went away to camp once. She went for three weeks and said it was very traumatic. She cried for three weeks and the people at the camp didn't let her call home.

She also said that she did have things that I didn't. She had self esteem and had loving support and protection from her parents and they took good care of her. However she didn't have a sense of identity because her mother was a 'helicopter parent' and made her dress a certain way (her mom was a fashion designer) in addition to being very controlling. She never had the room to think much about things or get pushed in terms of growth and as a result she never had to 'survive' like I had and doesn't have the skills that I do or the abilities. She was a mini version of her mother and didn't have the opportunities to be herself (much like myself in some ways only for me it was because I wasn't safe and I was busy surviving not exploring what would be interesting to me).

On a sad note we also talked about my beloved Java. Our dog passed away yesterday. It's really hard for our 7 yr old and tonight he cried for 1 1/2 hours in our comfort. I never realized how hard it would be to say goodbye to a family member and a friend.

Hoping this week gets better. I can't take anything else on right now.