Hi Delicate,
First of all, I'm so glad to hear from you again! I don't think you've posted since the summer and I was actually thinking about you recently wondering if you were ok.
I agree with everyone, there was no way you could have known about t's personal life, though I understand how you could feel bad about it. I think ts know that clients often have a lot going on with their emotions and say things they later wish they could take back or say differently, that's why we're all in therapy!
I hope you find a safe place, whether it's the hospital or a crisis center or going to a day program it sounds like you do need extra support. Thinking of you.