I’m 56 and the middle daughter and have been on 4 different meds for depression over 20 yrs; now I’m finally stabilizing.



My sister died of cancer at 49 after having abused alcohol and cigarettes since she was 13. She was beautiful, a model and loved to party. She married 3 times and had a son and daughter, my only niece and nephew.

My brother is 3 yrs younger, never married and is way too smart, lazy and lives with mom.

I live with my only husband of 26 yrs

He drinks way too much but goes to work every day, is very grounded, has a lot of common sense and I believe, loves me. His drinking will be another topic but so far I am able to deal with it and he has admitted his weakness, for what it’s worth.

My childhood was traumatic, my parents divorcing when I was in the third grade and mom and kids moving across the country, leaving my paternal grandparents whom I was very close to.

I loved my father fiercely

My mom her second of 3 divorces.

He moved back with her, had two or three short term jobs and has lived with mom ever since.

guilty that I made my mom sad and angry because she made me feel so guilty that she says she has ‘only a few good years left and she wants to spend them on the water’


putting the guilt on me.

Mom makes excuses for him and then got angry when I asked about it.



I’m hurt and angry and I feel it is unfair of her. I feel guilty about selling the boat and she has cried over the phone to me because of this.