I'm seeing my T tomorrow. I can't sleep. I'm worried bc today I had a little episode. I kept calling my therapist and the front office would hang up on me. I freaked out and called my sister (the supportive one) and had her call. Well I guess the phones r down or something. I called my T yesterday like 4 times. She did call me back early this morning and left a message.

Well I have a peer support person there. She is very similar to me but she keeps lecturing me on my meds. She is VERY sensitive so today she did it again (she also has bipolar and PTSD) I told her, her support feels conditional. She got REALLY offended. I said it gently. Idk what to do paranoia is blurring my perception I think. You know I think I've lived with paranoia to a degree all my life it SUCKS anybody else relate? Any insights would be appreciated. Thanks for reading.