Hi everyone...I appreciate you listening to me!! Thanks for the support---I really need it.

@Leed:
Hi!

My job caused a lot of anxiety, but so does school. I'm just trying to work through it so I can graduate. I'm starting to see that this is probably not the right career path for me after all. It's just way more stress than I can handle and I don't think my passion is there anymore.

Thanks for the suggestions...I need to try that carotid artery and cold water trick.

I've been seeing a counselor on and off for 2 years now...he says that I get anxiety when I don't express my emotions. I hadn't had attacks for years until after a really bad heartbreak 5 years ago. There were a lot of unknowns in that situation...and the unknowns really did a number on me. Ever since then, on and off I deal with attacks. I've been really working on self-improvement these past few years, and I've discovered that, deep down, part of my anxiety is also due to resistance of moving on from the past.

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@optimize
Hey!

I went to a psychologist when I was first diagnosed but she wasn't a child psychologist and I don't remember feeling really helped by it.

I'm in college and interning...was working but have no time for that and the job had been making me miserable for a very long time. Thankfully, I'm in a situation where I don't really need the money at this moment.

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@BeeKeeper

Thank you for your kind words
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Yesterday I had my first genuinely HAPPY and peaceful day in a long time. It's because I quit my job and realized that I can't deal with my major anymore. And it just gave me so much peace to acknowledge that those things weren't working, finally. I wish I had more peaceful days in my life!

Usually by the end of the day I feel frantic, ready to go to bed and not in a very social mood.

During the day, I feel just...frantic. It's made worse when I don't eat. I have to really try to be in the moment. I feel like just bad...it's hard to explain...like I don't feel normal--more like, I feel anxious and i also feel 'below' everyone else and feel like a robot just going from task to task like I can't relax....so idk how to remedy that just yet...

I do have a hard time taking my med as prescribed..Buspar 3x a day...b/c I have to eat it w/ a full meal or feel dizzy and drowsy. But when I do take it 3x, it feels like it helps a little.