I could swear that, last week, my T said: "I can't let you get comfortable, or you'll get stuck. I'm not just trying to keep you coming back forever so you'll pay me." I said: "I know - you do have lots of other clients." And he said: "Darn, you noticed them!"

My T doesn't remember this conversation. I had referred to it in an email and he told me yesterday that he was confused because he wouldn't have said that. He told me he's fine with me getting comfortable, that it's a good thing. How weird is that.

I don't think I looked back and remembered it wrong, as I remember thinking about what he said at the time and I remember where we both were in the room and exactly what he said and how. I figure maybe I misheard or misunderstood. Or maybe he said it because of some sort of counter transference and then forgot.

But it just goes to show that you can experience something totally differently to your T. I am currently getting a little freaked out by how much seems to be down to perception or the unconscious.