Poptart316Welcome!!!!!!!!!you are a good person and definatly someone who others would like to know. you probably don't see it in yourself, because you're so shy, but as you get older this should go away. You say you want to connect with people, I remember in myself in my teenage years I was so lonely and shy and found it hard to make friends. Then when I got in college everything was different. There were groups of people to sit with, people welcoming me and wanting me to be a part of themselves, as they were new too. Joy can be found in helping someone out with something, church groups, and maybe if you do get out to get a job that would do to as you wouldn't have to spend time at home too. My family was so cruel, i have 11 brothers and sisters, and they all turned on me as i was the 2nd eldest and they were rebelling against authority, i had to go through mother nature in that way too. Please tell yourself you are worth it you sound like a person I would like to know!!!!