I've tried blind faith. I blamed myself the first time she cheated on me. I thought it was because I was withdrawn. Now it is the second time that I know about and I can't help but think that is just part of her character. When things get tough or problematic, she wants to run off to a fantasy releationship. I haven't expressed any of these feelings. I try and believe she is willing to change and be in this releationship.

I just feel like she is trying to decieve me now. I think she realized how hard life would be without me and now she wants to fix things for herself. I still feel used and taken for granted.

I don't know how I really feel. I know I just feel depressed and trapped at the moment.