This semester has been going bad. I dropped my graphic design class the second day. Recently dropped my math class after I missed so many classes, I had a really hard time grasping/retaining it it all and it's an arithmetic class y'know very basic stuff and I'm starting to think I'm stupid.

I'm doing well in my English class, my professor said that I'm one of the better writers in the class so I'm sticking with this one, although barely now.. I missed the last class and didn't do the pre-writing assignment and have yet to start on paper 3.. I just gotta force myself to do it.


I'm majoring in graphic design, it's I guess it my goal at this Michigan Works program and I'm not really sure about it.. I get the feeling I wont like it or wont be any good it. I was also thinking about photography or just a liberal arts degree.. this is for my associates. I keep telling myself to just stick with it so it wont take me another 10 years to get a damn degree.

For my bachelors I had always wanted to go for filmmaking... but now it's a toss up between that and anthropology, biology, communications. Like I really have no idea what I'd like to do or what would be rewarding.

Also, I feel super anxious in class a lot of the time and really hate participating in group discussions, I feel like a freak and I'm afraid to talk to my professor or ask for help.. I'm afraid of failing. : /