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I strongly suspect you would greatly benefit from a different form of education or training that conforms to you.

For the most part, education beyond high school is different. I don't know what's available in your area, but you might now be able to go sit in on some college classes and some technical classes. Explore.

By the way, higher education is in an era of turmoil. Society and the workplace are evolving, and a noticeable number of people have found their traditional college/university educations poorly prepared them for current conditions. Now may be an excellent time for you to step back and take stock of yourself in this new emerging world.

Wishing you the kind of success that brings you fulfillment...