Hi All,

So I have been suffering from severe OCD and now what I think is a significant depression although I'm not sure since I was never majorly depressed before. I had an issue with my OCD a few months ago that plummeted me into this deep, dark introspection that I haven't been able to escape from. At first I thought it was simply my OCD thoughts that had gotten completely out of control, but it became unlike anything I had experienced before. To put it simply, I feel like I am talking to myself negatively all day long and I can't escape it no matter what I do. Even if the thoughts aren't coherent and complete, I feel like I am still stuck in my head. I feel like something is inherently wrong with me on the inside like I am a bad or evil person. I feel trapped by my own personality. On the outside I still present myself as my normal self so no one would know what was going on on the inside if I didn't tell them. I just feel like I am changed on the inside and any authentic good feelings I used to be able to feel were just phony. I tell myself that I'm not the person I thought I was. Even my dreams have taken on this dark tone. I use to enjoy my life, be able to relax and see the good in things, now I feel this dark energy has taken over the way I view myself and the world and I don't know how to get out of it. I am so confused as to if it really is something I am creating and that is wrong with my persona or just a deep depression and OCD. I have been seeing a psychologist, but so far I am not making much progress. Any thoughts would be appreciated