Dear T,

More and more I'm willing to talk about what's going on inside of me without censoring myself. You're the ONLY T I have been able to do that with! I am surprised by my honesty! You're the only T who has been "with me 100%" and not up on a pedestal. You're the only T who "goes the extra mile" for me.

I was scared yesterday. I didn't know you were going to agree that I suffer from any kind of PTSD. I'm still not sure what you said, though. I know you hate diagnoses! You think that my brother is a key to my feelings about my body. You made that clear to me, though I keep denying that in my mind.

I appreciate your honesty in telling me that it was probably "your stuff" in that session we were discussing. I also love when we talk about art. You're not faking liking my artwork.

I believe you when you say I'm not "just your job". You are highly dedicated to your clients.

We both know I wasn't 100% there yesterday. I think it's partly about what I said about poison, and what I said when I came back from the bathroom. All of this is related, all of this yucky stuff. I am so very glad I have you as my T to help me with all of this. Please stay healthy and safe so we can do this work together (and so we can share more of our artwork with one another. )

Thank you for being you, and for sticking with me for 3 years.

Love,
rainbow