T knew I had attempted sui before, but I was not suicidal until 8 months into therapy. I just all of the sudden started having feelings of compulsion. I wrote it all down of a piece of paper which I had in a death grip the entire session.

I was anxious as anything, sat down, and somehow managed to say that I had something big going on. She kinda starting guessing, which wasn't my intention, but she eventually guessed it with my clues.

I would write it on a piece of paper. If all else fails, you can just hand it to T.